tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5439068332126935654.post3615293389197357004..comments2010-02-23T08:01:12.031-07:00Comments on Still More Random Mutterings: Acceptance?Kelehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13208544444406408791noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5439068332126935654.post-2464238812651206482008-12-11T15:29:00.000-07:002008-12-11T15:29:00.000-07:00When I begin to want, I want it all, not just a pi...<I>When I begin to want, I want it all, not just a piece. And the wanting it all is what frightens me most.</I><BR/><BR/>That would frighten me too. This is a major part of why I find it difficult to write fiction, because I have very high expectations for my writing and right now my writing skills are not as good as my expectations, and I don't want to face the steps that it would take to get better. <BR/><BR/>But for whatever reason, I don't have those expectations for other activities and can just do whatever the next step is.<BR/><BR/>(A question to think about if you want to) Why do you have very high expectations of yourself in many areas? What would happen if you did not?<BR/><BR/>One reason I can think for my own high expectations is that people made a fuss about my writing talents when I was young. Another is that I decided at an early point that writing was my "calling." So if I now admit that I am not all that good at it, I have to find a new "calling" or face that I don't have one, and that makes me feel sad and overwhelmed. If I don't write at all, I can pretend that I just haven't gotten around to doing it yet...Anonymoushttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06594305022361264103noreply@blogger.com